I don't think I want to do this anymore.

My heart's been broken again.

Should have seen this coming.

Course she'd rather have somebody else, if I'm the other option they always go for the alternative.

Don't know why there was a part of me stupid enough to believe I had a chance.

STUPID STUPID STUPID.

Just another case of me not being good enough.

Maybe I never will be. Maybe this is it.

I can't win, can I?

I'm sick of trying to open up to people who don't value me.

Unwanted. Unappreciated. Don't tell me things will "get better". Right now I'm living in hell. Right now I feel worthless.

The people I care about are always the ones who make me feel worthless.

I wish I didn't have to feel anything anymore.

I don't want to love anyone. Not if this is the cost.

Starting to think I was born to be alone after all.

Some things can't be changed. Sometimes the closest ones will always hate you.

I wish I could start over. Forget everything. Forget all this loneliness and heartbreak. But then it would just happen again.

Don't tell me something good will happen and it will all be worth it.

People better than me die alone.

Most people are better than me.

Right now I am staring my inability to do anything right in the face.

I don't want to die.

I don't want to be alone.

I don't want to die alone.

But I'm so afraid I will.

I lose everyone who matters. Eventually I always do.

The only constants in my life are the people who brought me into this world.

When they are gone, I will have no one, because everyone else will have left.

And then everything, ever, I have done will be pointless.

It hurts. So so so so so so much.

And it doesn't stop.

Because even when I don't let on, my heart breaks a little bit more every day.