Oh my lord, it's the Mewtwo entry.

That is to say, the 150th entry of my blog. After, y'know, a full year, and a bunch of hiatuses and all. But it's OK! We made it!

Since we're already on the topic of Pokemon, I've started working on my LeafGreen Nuzlocke again, since it's chronologically the one I should be working on in terms of the story I have planned. The first time I played through was on a VBA emulator (look, I own the actual game cartridge, didn't want to erase the file I had, and didn't want to buy ANOTHER one), and got through the game only for VBA's sucky save system causing me to not be able to do the postgame. Trying to fix this only made me lose the file altogether (rather frustrating, since I had TWO SHINY POKEMON), so I got the no$GBA instead, which works much better. I'm about... halfway through? My computer ran out of power at the Chicago airport on the way home, and even though I had finished saving, it didn't take and my file was reset back to before I took on Celadon's gym. Which caused me to lose ANOTHER SHINY POKEMON. Gahhhhhh. Good thing I've got one each in Black and White, but STILL.

I have three of the members I took to the Elite Four the first time around, the others I can't get quite yet. I plan to recatch them all, make the team better than ever, and make an even more spectacular E4 run. The first time through I lost but one, and in the champion battle at that. This time you WILL survive, Ivan.

Got to spend some time with the tablet my parents got me, and with Photoshop. I think I will be able to use this quite effectively. I'm not a fantastic artist yet, but I'm getting better. That's what practice is for, after all. Trying to find a good style for me is tough, but I'm experimenting.

Before I decided to replay LeafGreen I started Emerald. I'm about halfway there as well, I'm going to grind a LOT so I can beat Norman without any losses. He's difficult in a normal playthrough as it is, and in Nuzlocke where fainting=death, I need to be as strong as possible to avoid losing any of my bros. I have four or five I want to take all the way already, and if I get past this obstacle I think I can do it.

After both of THOSE are done, I will do HeartGold. I don't know what to expect from that yet, if I level grind it shouldn't be too hard... but you never know.




In other news, I may or may not have fallen for a girl who I've only talked to on the internet a few times, has a scarily uncanny ability to think the same thought as me at the same time, lives in the UK, and is already taken.

Is there a support group for hopeless romantics like me? I'd love to go to one of those. It'd be nice.

Sayonara, London

Well, not quite yet. Still a day left before leaving for home Saturday. Still, I doubt I'll post much before then, what with my irregular schedule and all...

Right now the other students are having a farewell reception down in the kitchen. I was there briefly to get some cake and our "yearbooks" (which as always have about two photos of me), and then I went back up to my room where I'm writing this.

So... yeah. Honestly I don't feel like part of the group. Haven't since I got here back in January.

Honestly, the people here make me feel unwelcome and unwanted. Most people never made an effort to even talk to me, and when I tried to reach out I was ignored. Occasionally people invited me places... only to pay attention to their friends and completely ignore me. So I don't think I ever really fit in here. And I'm fine with that, really, I am. Because, I'm going to be honest now, I didn't ever expect to fit in as part of the group. I did not expect to be accepted and make a lot of friends. That's not how it works for me, I don't get to make a lot of friends period, and I suspected from the start that as soon as this is over and we go home, none of these people are going to talk to or think about me ever again.

And I'm fine with that. Really, I am. I'm starting to get sick of people who refuse to even show a little consideration from the moment they meet me, and the few people I did know from Central are horrible enough to me that I just explained that I didn't know anyone here. But after a long time to dwell on it, I decided that I'm not going to blame myself anymore for people being unkind to me. That's their problem, their loss. I have plenty of people who genuinely like and care about me back home, and I look forward to seeing them again.

I liked London, don't get me wrong. I just don't really feel that close to the people I had to share it with. People I knew who treated me like crap, people who were rude and dismissive, and girls who can't look past outer appearances and see that maybe there's someone right there worth taking a chance on.

If I was a worse person, I would not even attempt to be civil. Many of the people here aren't worth it. A very few actually made a small attempt to get to know me, but... too little too late, perhaps. I don't know.

I'm ready to go home and see the people who care again.