If only we had a cat!

Today was our first dress rehearsal for Urinetown. Holy cow, this is going fast- it might just work out!

Improv was later tonight, and was kinda shorter than usual. Now, don't get me wrong, I love having the older students around because they're all great, but there's a part of me that can't wait 'til they're gone, because we have a tendency to avoid even trying to play a lot of games. There's really no explanation for it either, just "oh, it's too hard" or "nah, I hate that game." One day I'd like to try them and find out for myself, y'know? I don't think many games should be too hard, I think I'm clever enough to figure them out, but... otherwise, I absolutely love improv. A show's coming up next Wednesday, and the last one went really well, so this one should be pretty awesome too.

My birthday is in a little more than a week. I find this fact disturbing. I will be nineteen, and frankly I'm pretty sure I've stopped aging much within the last few years. If I hit twenty-five and still look like this, I'm going to a medical professional, because there's some weird stuff going on with my body.

Not that I'm complaining about that, mind you.

Recently I feel as though I've been losing my humor touch. Do all comedians have occasional ruts? I really hope that's the case- or perhaps the exertion I'm going through plus my emotional conflicts are affecting me somehow? Man, I'm probably a psychological goldmine. I dunno... the issues with the female sex recently may be causing some sort of... um... total protonic reversal? No, that's not right. But I was near one of them at dinner tonight, eating with the cast, and I feel a bit like I tried to force the funny to come, although outside opinions state that this is not the case. Perhaps I am just being paranoid/cautious? Hrmph. I need more help with this, honestly. One of my friends is dating one of her BFFs (never used that term seriously before), and I've talked about it with him... I probably need their advice. I'm glad I can trust some people here. I think I'm slowly getting a bit more accepted.

Sometimes I wish I hadn't been an only child, or one of a multitude of other things that would help me with social skills. Can I trade one of my useless skills like matching socks for that?