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So. Positive feeling. Definitely here to stay. Excellent.

I have been searching for those collectible minifigures for some time now and still don't have any. They're even sold out online. Well, isn't that just dandy? It'd be really nice if I could find some soon...

Besides that, I feel optimistic. Exuberant, even. I'm beginning to understand the "you have to learn to love yourself" advice I got. It may have sounded cheesy, but that wisdom was pretty gouda.

...if you leave now I won't blame you...

Anyway, it's like I've made a real advancement for once. I think I may be able to actually get the girl for once. It might take a while, but I know I can do it. ...I do worry about her, though. She broke up with a jerk of a guy, but although I don't understand how she ever liked him I know that she must be hurting right now. I know all too well what it's like to be rejected by someone you don't automatically realize isn't good enough for you... If there was a way for me to be there for her right now, I'd do it, but I can't think of anything her close friends couldn't do better. It's them that she needs right now, not some other guy who wants to be with her. She needs to heal, and I have to respect that. So I will. I've waited a long time to find someone like her, I can wait a while longer. Then I can work on doing things the right way this time.

Some people might say that I don't need to look for a relationship now, that there's no harm in waiting. Those people don't quite understand... I've spent a lot of time being alone. I refuse to deal with that anymore. Living for just myself isn't fulfilling for me... I see and understand so much on a level different from other people, and I want to share that with someone. Nowhere does it say I need to wait thirty years for that, because I'm not going to. I'm as good as anyone else, in fact, there are a lot of people that I'm better than. They get their chances, well, it's time I got mine.

An era of sadness, self-pitying, and loneliness is over, and good riddance to it. It lived long past its welcome. I've finally stopped holding myself back unintentionally. Nobody's seen what I'm really capable of yet, because even when I tried my hardest before, there were always those black clouds on the horizon, but no more. It's clear sailing ahead. This time, I'm going to live my life how I want to. I have the power to improve my life, and I'm the only one who can do that- nobody else chooses for me.

Right here, right now, is the perfect time for this new life to start. The path to tomorrow is the one I choose, not the one anyone else does. Trust me. I've finally got it figured out.

And it feels good!