...I lied! Um, about not posting again today. I'm here way earlier than I expected and not really tired at all. This pleases but surprises me. I have a little homework to do but it won't take long- this week's coasting on the downhill side now. Should be pretty easy from here on out.
I'm not pleased with the way my religion essay turned out, but frankly as long as I pass the class I'm not really concerned either way. It's just another thing to hate about Mondays. And, um, Wednesdays and Fridays. Actually, I don't hate a lot about those days. It's really just that class that annoys me.
Which reminds me, speaking of classes on those days, I had another Logic test today. It either went spectacularly well or spectacularly bad, I'm not sure yet. At first I had a little trouble with the test after the first section, but I did a little doodling on the scratch paper, pulled myself together, and managed to have somehow logicked myself through it. I think. The last page threw me for a loop though, were those answers all supposed to be C's and D's?
I found out today that the girl from the musical likes another guy. I'm not as heartbroken as I thought I would be, but still... apparently this other guy hasn't the best of reputations, so it probably won't work? I think? I dunno... does it make me a bad person to hope that that particular pairing fails so that I have a chance with her? It's just... I want her to be happy, but I want to be happy for once. I don't want to be alone, not anymore. With all I've been through, all I've faced, I think I've earned a chance for once in my life. Even if I have to defy the universe and tear apart fate with my own hands, I don't care, I just want to not feel so alone anymore. It took me too long to realize how much I needed other people. I can't fail anymore... I won't fail anymore!
Even when trapped by karma's cycle!
The dreams I left behind will open the door!
Even if the universe stands in my way...
My seething blood will determine what will be!
I'll break through time and space, and defy all who would stop me to grab hold of my own path!
JUST WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM?!?!
Oh, there was cake again, after the musical, though.
...I think I'm bipolar.
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Hey now, cake is a great thing to have <3 lol
ReplyDeleteAlso I can't wait to see Urinetown tonight~ I look forward to seeing you. As for the girl thing, I'm not sure exactly who you are speaking of, but I can give you a little advice as a girl.
[1] If she's chasing guys like that she's not worth your time. You may care but it's rare that girls chase guys like that and know how to properly treat /real/ men, so it might be for the best, as hard as it is to say.
[2] It's not wrong of you to want them to fail. I've been there a lot with some guys. I think you will find your girl in due time, it just takes a lot of patience. Sometimes the best of things only come when you are not looking for it~
~Butterfly
Well... I don't think that it's exactly such as she's chasing after him as she just likes him and hasn't realized she's making a mistake yet... to be fair, I may be wrong, all I know is that he's apparently "controversial," whatever that means... but it's not like they're together or anything, so there's still hope at the moment...
ReplyDeleteI just don't want to give up right now- I think I've just been pushed far enough and I'm starting to push back. The thing about small furry animals in corners is that, just occasionally, one of them turns out to be a mongoose.