So the first set of Directing II shows were tonight. They were pretty good, and funny to boot, so that's always great.
Needed the humor today, really. Just felt kinda down all throughout. And tired too. Spring break may have been a week, but that is not long enough, so Easter break will be a welcome reprieve. Either I need to talk to someone or just get away for a while... I know I'll probably feel better in the morning, but right now I'm hurting and it's hard to look to the future.
But I keep moving on, watching the world turn, standing amongst them all but apart from everyone.
...*sigh* Sometimes I manage to explain things like that, but usually I feel rather inarticulate about my inner feelings. Maybe that's one of the reasons it seems like people don't understand. 'Cause right now I'm thinking about her and how beautiful and amazing she is but she likes someone else, and even though I know it's not forever it's still killing me a little. On the other hand I'm glad I can't say anything to her because what would I say? I'm so inexperienced at this I'd screw it up.
This is why I need other people, because there are things I can be brilliant at, but then there are the little things that, to all of you, seem simple and mundane, but to me are mountains to climb over. And I can't climb those mountains alone.
I hope the weekend brings better feelings. Now to just distract myself until I fall asleep so these dark whisperings of loss and loneliness go away.
Okay, that's just getting a little too flowery there. Sorry about that. Perhaps I had best go to bed now.
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you tell her what you've told us =3 to me, nothing is sweater than a guy who can flat-out tell me the open hearted truth.
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