I need a break, I need a vacation

This morning, I woke up early, and I made a decision. The problem I've been having lately, or really the root of my problems, is that I let myself get into situations where things are liable to go wrong. And so, I decided that for at least this week, I'm going to remove myself from any potential situations.

As much as I dislike doing it, I'm minimizing communications unless necessary (or I really feel like it) and staying away from the theater and all the people and things in it. Although I have no problem with them, they all remind me of what I'm going through, and this week I'm putting my mind anywhere else. See, I've let things get way out of hand. I've gotten too emotionally dependent on the feelings of one person right now, and I've done some stupid things in the past week, so for a few days I'm just letting go of all that for a while. I'm just going to be me, no reliance or dependence on anyone else. I'm just going to put my efforts into other things and let my head clear, so I can get some proper perspective again.

It's been working pretty well... given that in high school, the most I could ever get away for was just two days on the weekend, well, this is an improvement already. I'm still going to class and stuff, but I just have a lot of time in between.

I don't know exactly what I'm going to do with all this free time I have. I've just been enjoying life for now. I have things to do that I haven't gotten around to yet- I haven't even touched my DS at all and I don't feel like I've been wasting time. I have ideas for things I want to draw and now I can actually sit down in a quiet room for a while and just do what I want to.

Well, mostly quiet. Some idiot has a radio in the bathroom and leaves it on full blast even when they're not in there. I had to go in an hour or so ago and I turned it down. It annoyed me, so I didn't really care what they thought. Next time it happens, though, I'm going to unplug it. Or take out the batteries, or whatever.

Ah yes, I did mention I was going to draw some things. I have two planned right now, and having actually sketched some stuff recently I feel the creative juices beginning to flow once more. My first piece will be a tribute to Gurren Lagann- there's a great scene that involves a hot-blooded speech being made, and then a volcano erupts behind them. They do it again in the second movie, but it's a universe-sized volcano. It makes sense in context. So anyway, I'm drawing the more action-oriented Graphing Mercury characters making an awesome pose in front of an exploding volcano.

My second planned thing will probably take longer- I've been thinking about the concept of regeneration in Doctor Who recently, and I wondered what it would be like if I were to regenerate. What kind of personality would I have? What would I look like, and what would I wear? So that's the idea- draw twelve other incarnations of myself. Draw on an aspect or two of my personality and create an entirely new me for each one. It'll be me in my favorite brown-and-green getup and twelve other guys. Who are also me. I'm first, of course. I thought about being the thirteenth, and then briefly just being a random number for the laughs, but nah, I'm number one.

So far I've decided to make Troy 2.0 (that's my numbering system, work with me here) the tall-dark-and-handsome type, wearing black or other dark colors, and Troy 3.0 is going to draw some inspiration from Jim Broadbent. It's a shame he wasn't in The Curse of Fatal Death that much... but yeah, a short, shy, slightly pudgy guy. I'm determined that at least one will have a scarf, and another shall have aviator goggles.

And of course, at some point, a bow tie. Bow ties are cool.


...yup, definitely a good plan. Better than I've felt in quite a few evenings...